archives for September, 2004
28th September 04

I started my two classes this week (International Relations and Diplomacy in the M.E., and Islamic Civilization) – both of which seem to be really interesting. I’m excited to learn more about the history of the region for sure.

I don’t really have the time to write a full entry, just to say hello – because tomorrow is our colloquial Arabic test .. and I need to study some more. Actually though, I feel confident in what we’ve learned and my vocabulary is probably up to about 300 words now – which is amazing for only a month. (at least its amazing to me!) But you learn a lot when its everywhere you go .. plus all the Jordanians I meet get so excited when I speak in Arabic, which only makes me want to work harder to get better at it.

26th September 04

This weekend was amazing. I don’t even know how to try and describe it. I went on a tour of southern Jordan, including Kerak, Dana, Wadi Rum, Petra and Aqaba.

Kerak – famous for its Crusader castle which is enormous. Standing inside it was the first time I’ve really been inside a building built over a 1,000 yrs ago that is still completely standing. Its on top of a big mountain overlooking the city.

Dana – a nature reserve in Jordan that has spectacular views .. the drive to get to it was amazing. Our guide pointed out the different separations of the ancient kingdoms of the Moabites and the Edomites, which just blows me away.

Wadi Rum – the strangest, yet most beautiful place on earth I’ve yet to see. It looks like how I picture Mars. Yellow/redish sand with enormous wadis (canyons) of brown/black rocks. It was made famous by the movie Lawrence of Arabia apparently .. but its like an outdoorsy persons dream come true. I slept out in the middle of the desert and have never seen more stars in my life. We took camels just to get to our remote campsite – which was uncomfortable but entertaining.

Petra – who knew that it was more than just that one building seen in Indiana Jones? Its an entire city – probably a mile long, completely carved out of the canyons surrounding it. The engineers of the city were some of the smartest people who ever lived I’m convinced. It was built over 2,000yrs ago and some of the water channels are still being used today.

Aqaba – the Jordanian sea port on the Red Sea. WOW! The water there is crystal clear blue. Its the 2nd best scuba diving in the world. Yesterday I went snorkeling along the reefs – which I’ve never done before – I was in awe. The sheer beauty of the ocean and its creatures is dumbfounding. A few times my breath was literally taken away by the colorful reefs, schools of fish and exotic sealife only feet away from me. Eels, flounders, puffer fish.. everything… I can’t wait to go back and explore more. Who can look at that and not see purpose and design? I don’t know.. but it was incredible.

21st September 04

I’m really excited because I just bought my first traditional Jordanian dress. It’s black and red and sooo pretty. They’re tailor making it for me for 30JD which is so awesome! In the states no one sews clothes for that price.

The last few days have been really busy and I haven’t been sleeping very well. Last night I went over to Keith & Christi’s and spent time with them and some others that came over – it was really nice to be around them.

An amazing thing happened! My friend Carrie who is meeting with me in the mornings met them about a week ago.. and then on Sunday Keith noticed her in the Arab meeting. Out of all the people in Amman, she ends up with a family who goes to the same services! Talk about someone chasing her down across the world!

I had a really tough experience in the taxi this afternoon. On the way to uni I was reading the chapter with the “turn the other cheek” policy .. and then this afternoon a taxi driver spent the entire ride telling me and my friend how fat and ugly I was. It was definitely an attack on one of my weaker areas – my self-esteem. I managed to not say a word, despite the feelings of hurt/anger.. but when I stepped out of the taxi I couldn’t control my tears. I ended up not going to class because I couldn’t get myself to stop crying.

I’m feeling a lot better about it now .. and if anything, it just made me turn my head up and ask for some help.

Keep me in your thoughts.

20th September 04

The refugee camp was nothing like I expected it to be. Maybe I’m the only one who thinks this way – but I hear “refugee camp” and I imagine stricken poverty, tents, food lines, etc. We went the largest camp (out of 10) in Jordan – which is only about 25mins outside of Amman. It was just a regular city – granted a bit less economically developed, but nonetheless, a city.

I dunno, I felt a little disappointed to be honest. I hadn’t really taken into consideration that the camp has been there since 1948 – so for many of the refugees this is the 3rd generation, and of course life just goes on and businesses/homes/streets are all built.

Hearing the history of the Palestinian refugees was really sad. The guy on our bus is himself a refugee and lives in the camp. Its essentially a very concentrated and fairly under-developed city within less than 2sq/km there are 110,000+ people living.. so its highly over-populated. There is one clinic that serves over 200,000+ people – with a staff of just 6 doctors and 18 nurses. But everything is free – education, all medical services/prescriptions, vocational training, etc. Its a really amazing service thats being performed there.

Brief history of the Palestinians:

Ok, so 15 May 1948 known as “al-Nakba” (catastrophe) to the Palestinians was when Israel became a nation again for the first time in roughly 2,000 years. The problem was that the region had been, and was still, populated with Arabs (known as Palestinians since they call the land from the Jordan to the Mediterranean: Palestine). They’d been living there since roughly 630AD and Jews were a small minority until a rapid relocation took place headed by Zionists that occured in the 1920’s-30’s.

Anyways after a few ugly/deadly battles and an embarrassing loss by the Arab nations that tried to fight Israel a mass exodus of Palestinians began -most moved to neighboring countries such as Lebanon, Syria, Jordan and Egypt. Those who lost their homes and livilihoods were deemed “Palestine refugees” and Jordan ended up with over 1.8 million – the total still living here.

In 1967 the 6 day war took place, in which once again the Arabs were defeated by the Israelis – who continued to push their borders farther out into the West Bank and Gaza. The term ”West Bank” was coined as the area that Jordan owned at the time but that extended east to the Jordan river. After that another 1/2 million or so were forced to leave – however the 1967 group are called “displaced Palestinians”, not refugees. The reason for this is because the West Bank was apart of Jordan the Palestinians were Jordanian citizens – so it was seen as moving from one part of the country to another part.. even though Jordan ended up losing the West Bank as a territory.

That brings us to today where the conflict over the land continues. The Israelis have the military power and the U.S. backing, so the Palestinians realize that the chances aren’t very in favor of them getting all of their land back – but the resentment/bitterness towards Israel and the U.S. doesn’t waver. One thing for sure about Arabs is that they think much differently than Westerners. We are a show-me-now culture – whereas the Arabs are in it for the long haul. They believe their cause is just and right, and until the occupation of Palestine ends – they won’t be happy.

Its totally understandable though. Imagine if Native Americans had the power to kick us out of the states because hundreds of years ago it was their land. Granted – its far fetched and could never happen, thats essentially what did happen in Palestine/Israel 50yrs ago.

The situation is so complex and the longer a solution isn’t figured out, I believe, the worse the situation will get. With all the anger/frustration/loss the Palestinians have endured in the last 50+yrs its no wonder that it has become a breeding ground for fundamentalists – who then turn into terrorists and suicide bombers.

Today the young man on the bus told us “for every Palestinian who is killed (by the Israelis) there will be 1,000 more who rise up in his place”. 

When I was in the states and I’d hear of the conflict here it was so abstract .. so illogical. Couldn’t they just get along? But being here puts things into a whole new perspective – especially living with a refugee family who was forced out in 1948. Palestinians are a huge percentage of the Jordanian population and everyone has a terribly sad story to tell as to how they ended up here. They’re an eternally optimistic group of people though – they see the future (if not for them, but for their kids or grandchildren) to be bright and to see a time when they’re allowed to return to where they’re from.

18th September 04

Well first off I wanted to answer Jayme’s question. Yes, they LOVE American movies – I think Titanic is the all-time best in their opinion. The song “My Heart Will Go On” is STILL played here… its pretty weird to be honest. Otherwise they’re so up-to-date on our movies/music. They know a lot about American pop culture – and the young people love it, and for the most part, they love Americans – they just hate our gov’ts foreign policies of course.

Yesterday I went to the Dead Sea. It was really crazy – and it BURNED so badly because I had a blister on my foot and its 20% salt.. ahhh. It was really beautiful. It was so strange to look across and realize the other side was Palestine/Israel. I kept thinking about all the ancient stories involving the Dead Sea and its area.. this part of the world has a very mystical feeling.

The night before last I didn’t fall asleep until after 7am. It was really nice though – I just listened to my fav worship cds all night and had lots of time to just reflect on things. I feel like it was really what I needed – alone time. One of the songs lyrics really stuck out to me and so I wrote them down and taped it up on my mirror. …

“If the whole wide world is on your back
If the strength you need is the strength you lack
If you’re in a crowd but all alone
If you can’t stay here but you can’t go home
If you can’t answer all the why’s
‘Cause you’re too tired to reach that high
I want you to remember
If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I have never left you; I’m where I’ve always been
Right by your side”

Today I tried to make lasagne for the family, but it totally turned out terrible. I was dying laughing sooo hard because they were all like “mmmm this is so good” just to make me feel good. They even took seconds even though I knew it was killing them to get it down. I felt like our roles were reversed.. lol .. I just couldn’t stop laughing. The bottom was burnt and so they went and got knives to try and cut through it and keep eating it! Words just don’t describe how funny it was. They knew I knew that they didn’t like it, so they kept trying not to giggle .. and at one point I was laughing so hard that I spewed my water everywhere .. which only made me laugh harder.

My mom, Nisreen, seems to be having a really hard time lately and I’m not quite sure what to say. She keeps talking about how much she dislikes being mom, and feels trapped with the kids around. She really doesn’t leave the house but maybe 2 times a week – seriously.. and there are only a few rooms in the house.. so I don’t blame her for feeling some resentment.. but I’m not sure how to make her feel better. I think the fact that I come and go so easily doesn’t help either, so I was glad to spend the day just with her and help out a bit more with the kids.

I took Lujain, the 6yr old, with me when I ran a few errands and it was so cute – she was soo excited and proud to be walking with me. She was acting like such a big girl, sometimes its amazing that shes only 6. She has more responsibilities than most teenagers in the states and just accepts them. Shes always helping out by cleaning, she knows about cooking.. and she is seen as an authority figure to the 2yr old and spanks her and everything when she gets out of line. Its a very different parenting approach here, I think in both good and potentially bad ways.

We only have another week or so left of Ahmeya Arabic and we begin our regular schedule with Fus-ha (Modern Standard Arabic). Monday we’re going to a refugee camp, which should be a really amazing thing to see. I’m not very knowledgable about what happens there ..but I’m sure I’ll be able to tell more about it after I go. Anyways, if anyone has any particular questions about life here that I’m not answering – just let me know. =)

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