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Thursday January 27, 2005

January 27, 2005, admin

Since my family has been here I haven’t had as much time to write…

I found out recently that my dad is sick again … they found cancer in his hip and liver … they hope for 2yrs, but liver cancer is typically 6-12mths lifespan ..

My brother emailed me to tell me.

I don’t really know how to feel about everything .. part of me feels like I should just be able to accept it – he had colon & kidney cancer .. and a heart attack, all within the last four years… but it just felt like that was all over – he’s been so healthy lately .. it just makes me feel guilty that I can’t see him while he’s in the hospital and while he goes through chemo/radiation again ..

Anyways.. thats all .. I need to go now.. 

I hope everyone is having a good week .. and I’m really excited for Alisha & Jamie - they found out they’re gonna have a baby which they’ve wanted since they married last fall… They’ll be great parents

 

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5 Responses to “Thursday January 27, 2005”

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    Oddbeani Says:
    January 30th, 2005 at 5:48 pm

    You dont know me. I dont know you. I know God and so do you and right now were going to work off that basis. I know that there is nothing we can do to stop God’s plan, well very few things at least. I think that Pastor Jef *whom I assume you know since he mentioned you a few times* said it best: Church, if you see me die anytime soon, get over and pray for my resurrection because I am not done here yet!

    Hmm, I am at a loss for words as to compel you to believe in miracles, and sometimes that though the miracle we want as humans does not come, it is STILL God’s plan for things to work out, whether or not someone goes to meet the Father before we want them to is another thing.

    I know you wish that you could be there with your father, for him, but when it comes down to it, the one person who will literally be holding his hand throughout every procedure is going to be his father, our father, it’s going to be God. I dont have enough eloquence to alleviate what you might be feeling, but I have a lot in me that knows when something is in God’s will, it is going to happen come hell or high water. I am pretty sure you have heard the term “God works in mysterious ways” and I am sure you will hear it again, but please listen to it this time: God. works. in. mysterious. ways.

    Though your dad’s body might be physically sick, God has him in His hands still, even though sometimes it feels as though we are hurting, the people around us are hurting, God has him, so don’t feel too bad that you cant be there. I know this from some first hand experience. Um…I could not find the exact passage I wanted, but it is somewhere in th OT, Job I had thought, but this might help a bit too:

    20 At this, Job got up and tore his robe and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground in worship 21 and said:

       

        “Naked I came from my mother’s womb,

        and naked I will depart. [c]

        The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away;

        may the name of the LORD be praised.”

       

        22 In all this, Job did not sin by charging God with wrongdoing

    My view on that is though some horrid thing had just happened to Job and by all means he could have been justified for cursing God, he went to God and offered worship in his pain knowing that it was God’s will. I dont get thing whole ‘God’s will’ thing all that well myself, so I am relating what I know and I am praying that it helps.

    From someone you dont know, and who doesnt know you.

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    free_by_grace Says:
    January 29th, 2005 at 3:07 pm

    Heavenly father, your will be done… and let the Peace of God reign.

    Amen

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    eaglewind Says:
    January 28th, 2005 at 12:37 pm

    I wish I had a great quote, or scripture, or something that could make the pain go away. We’ll be praying too.

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    strawberry14 Says:
    January 27th, 2005 at 5:26 pm

    It’s so hard to be far away when someone so close is ill and you want to be with that person. We’ll be praying for you.  Thanks for the news about Jaime and Alisha, I hadn’t heard yet.

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    walkalongside Says:
    January 27th, 2005 at 1:55 pm

    I am so sorry to hear your dad is ill again.  That would be very hard so far away.  Will be lifting you and your family in prayer.  It is always difficult to be willing to let go.  Whatever age they are.  I will be leaving soon to go spend time with my almost 97 yr old aunt who is slipping away.  We just never know how many days God has planned for those we love.

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