Esther Brady Crawford - faintstarlite

Answering the question why I get on this site day after day after day.

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Sometimes I feel as if I ought to post something, anything… but really, I don’t have anything noncontroversial to say, so I’ve just dropped by Xanga to say I was here.

But now I feel like writing something, dang it… but what?

I suppose I should say that I only have two weeks left of classes, which I am incredibly grateful for… more than grateful – ecstatic. I get to a point every year where I question why it is that I enrolled again, and what this degree is worth in terms of time and money. The truth is that this is probably my last year to just goof off before settling into a career, so shouldn’t I enjoy it? The only trouble is that I have all these papers to write and books to read – so my goofing off time gets swallowed up by school work – *sigh*.

In addition, I’m busy avoiding people I live with and near. As nice as everyone is – sometimes I just want them to all go away and be replaced by my real friends… people I love and who love me. There’s this little problem of distance though. Whose idea was it to move here? Oh yeah… mine.

Well now I feel as if I ought to qualify everything I’ve just said and restate that I’m enjoying it here, and have found the program to be interesting… and I’m learning a lot. Have I yet mentioned I miss having a car? Because I do. A lot.

Oh – and it’s getting cold… not ready-to-snow kind of cold, just wear-a-warm-coat kind of cold. I wouldn’t want to be in Wisconsin right now because of the weather, which makes me wonder, “Will I ever be able to endure a winter there?” I suppose I better learn to deal with it.

Or perhaps I can convince Nick to pursue desert landscaping… I’ve always wanted to live in the Gulf. The Persian Gulf I mean. Perhaps Dubai? I hear they have a lot of positions available. But then again, I keep getting these stupid emails from the State Department and I’m half-tempted to just apply and see what happens. But what if I got the job somehow? I wonder if I’d even qualify for secret service clearance though.

*sigh* I’m all confused. And I have this lecture about the US midterm elections to go attend. Yes, they care about that here. See everyone in the world, except the majority in America, realizes the importance of American policies. I wish more of us cared. Perhaps then there wouldn’t be so much poverty or hunger or war. Maybe I’m an idealist. I kind of like that about me though.

Ok, sorry for the babble – I’m really going now. =)

I share the story of a man I met while at al-Ruweished refugee camp on the border of Jordan-Iraq.

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The first one was taken with some friends, classmates and people who live in my building. The second one is of my volleyball team (I was uber-excited when I made the team & we’ve been doing really well) so I’m proud. And yes, I am the shortest on the team. =)

Starvation is caused by a lack of distribution – not supply.

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