After coming back to Durham I’ve realized how much I miss having sunshine. It’s been overcast for the past four days and very windy… *sigh*… I’m ready for some summer warmth. I find it a lot more challenging to want to get up and be productive when it’s icky outside… today I just want to crawl back into bed and lay there until the weather improves.

Actually part of these feelings are a result of emotionally letting my guard down… knowing I’m so close to moving back to America, I’ve really indulged those thoughts about missing people and places… which I wouldn’t have allowed myself to do several months ago because it would’ve just driven me crazy. Here I am only 12 days away from seeing people and it feels like time is crawling by and the loneliness is more difficult to push aside. I need to be especially productive in the next few days, but instead, my steam is running out and it’s taking a lot more energy to do less.

Ah well. I’ve been in this position before and at least I know that there is an end in sight and soon I’ll have Nick & my friends and family’s arms wrapped around me. That is comforting. =)