10th May 08
It’s getting down to the wire now – just two weeks before the wedding and my to-do list continually taunts me with its unwillingness to shrink.
My own happiness and bliss is ironically juxtaposed against what’s happening in my family right now. Even with a large family it is hard to miss when within weeks of each other and the wedding, three of my siblings’ relationships stand on the brink of divorce or are in the midst of the destruction. Two of the three have significant others who won’t even attend the wedding because of the drama.
What has happened to a family when this level of chaos is normal? What about the kids – the vows?
It’s heartbreaking.
I’ve had a few pity-party moments in the last month as I’ve faced my childhood, my place within my complex family, and my anger with my Dad’s absence. It was an emotional journey I needed to take because I am the myriad of my experiences and when I step back it’s easy to see the obvious truth that I am blessed.
Yesterday I had my final dress fitting and it almost made me cry – the dress fits perfectly and I can’t wait for Nick to see me in it! *squeals of joy*
Plans for our honeymoon in Nicaragua have taken shape and I am so excited. It’s not just about taking a vacation – we’ve spent plenty of time traveling around Europe together… I can’t even describe why it’s going to be so wonderful – it just is. =)
I suppose it’s cliche and tacky because every bride feels this way – but I really do feel like the luckiest woman in the world.
